She Turned On The Music To Turn Off A Moment Of Her Life

Tired of the reproaches of always and exhausted with tears, she decided to turn on the music to extinguish a moment of her life. Reduce the yelling and the insults to silence, and be able to be a quiet moment. But her mind kept blaming itself and believing what she was hearing.

As her tears wet her cheeks, with the music playing in the background, she tried to escape and imagine herself in another place. Any place worked, as long as she couldn’t hear what was hurting her. Life cannot be that, life does not deserve to be lived under cries. Life doesn’t mean continuous blame, even if that’s all it knows.

Convinced that she was not good enough, and having lost all hope of change, she decided that what she heard would be the guide of her life. This decision made him lose himself in his own inner world and the screaming became his self-fulfilling prophecy.

Her voice turned into a whisper as she couldn’t fight those cries rooted in her interior.

Words, like bullets, can stop the heart

And like a little bird with a broken wing that falls into a drawer, she has remained locked in this world of fools and brainless. Because hearing every day that she is useless, that everything would be better if she was not there and not being able to escape was killing her slowly and teaching her to hate.

This hatred which was born in his womb and which hampered him. There is no worse condemnation than that uttered by others, for words, like bullets, can stop the heart and fill the blood with the venom of fear and indecision. And so, whatever she did, she did because that’s what other people wanted and not what she thought herself.

Transformed into a caricature of herself, each cry turned into one more stone to add to her grave. Dead in life and like an automaton, she did whatever the others wanted to avoid the reproaches that hurt her. And there was already no more music because there was no more life in its interior. No melody could make her forget the hell she felt inside her.

The words of others had buried her alive, for she was not fulfilling an ounce of the expectations that lay within her.

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It’s a mistake to try to take the screams out of the head if they don’t come out of the heart

And that is how his days were spent, with a smile as a mask and a look that froze the soul. Until one fine day, she realized that she no longer heard screams, but that she hadn’t found peace in herself either. She felt empty and misunderstood and did not understand why she was not happy if the screams, reproaches and insults that made her sink had disappeared.

She then began to wonder what she really wanted, what she had always wanted and she understood that it was not to stop hearing these screams. She wanted to be free and live her life without having to wait for what others told her, but without having to fulfill all of her expectations.

She understood then that it was a mistake to take all her cries out of her head if they did not come out of the heart first If with each beat, she was reminded of everything she had lost because she did not have followed his path. She took a deep breath and let her imagination take flight. She turned on the music again, but this time it was to listen to the melody coming out of her heart.

“Forget to make predictions because they always fail. Forget about expectations, because they always disappoint. Listen. Learn. Love what there is. Feel the beat of life and let yourself be carried away. ”

-Francesc Miralles-

You are who you are, not what other people you are

So she decided that no one was going to mark her path for her. She decided that she was not what others decided she was, that she was useless, or less than nothing, even though by dint of hearing it, she had become one. She started to open her backpack full of stones that had been put on her back on the path, and each stone corresponded to a word that the others had thrown at her.

Armed with courage and with the music emanating from her interior, she took the leap and decided that the words of others would never rule her life because she was going to take the following steps:

• Submission to the desires of others only brings pain, so she decided that she herself would always be her own choice. Because she was important too, and if she showcased herself, others would too.

• You are who you are, not what others say you are: she has decided that there may be thousands of rumors. Maybe the other people are devoting themselves to putting a damper on him. But only she knew what she was like and what she was capable of achieving, even though no one would stop to listen to her.
• Whatever you do, you’re going to be wrong: but it’s always better to go wrong doing something you want rather than blindly obeying the expectations of others. She learned that not everything she would do would please others and she accepted it, because now she has regained her self-esteem.
• Listening to yourself is the best decision you can make in life and that’s why she followed the melody that inscribed in her heart, because it showed her what she really wanted.

• With stupid words, deaf ears: in the face of insults, cries and destructive criticisms that brought nothing, she learned to turn a deaf ear. There are only those who give you good reasons to criticize yourself, whether these criticisms are founded or not, which deserve to be listened to.

And like a true warrior, she showed all her courage, broke to surrender to those who asked her to and began to live as she wanted. With a big smile and with a decision, she took the reins of her path. And she never had to turn on the music again to turn off her life for a while because she herself created the melody.